Sorry it has been a couple of weeks. I was going through some "stuff" that needs to be gone through in order to continue growing and continuing on my journey. My last couple of posts were painful and kind of a downer. I didn't want to continue posting depressing blogs, so I took some time to refocus and concentrate on some of the responses I got to my last blog. Old friends with such words of advise and encouragement; responses from family, people who have known me since I was 6 years old and friends from middle and high school. It really touches my heart to know how much everyone cares. Thank you, thank you, thank you!
So for the big update!!!!! I HAVE LOST 27 POUNDS!!!!!!
I can't tell you how happy I was to finally crack that 23.5 pound mark. I was stuck there for 2 weeks. It has been so hard not to give into temptation. I am craving a pizza so badly. Funny thing, I'm not craving fast foot at all. I used to eat fast food every day.......yes, every day. I really don't miss it. I don't miss soda either, and amazingly, I don't miss chocolate. I do get some chocolate everyday on Nutrisystem, but it is not the same as a Milky Way bar. :-)
I am excited about being sucessful on this journey. I think I might even be more excited about the personal growth I am doing and finally (hopefully once and for all) moving past the crap from the past. For me at least, it is amazing how much stuff I burried just to survive. It becomes clear each time something happens why I ate excessively, why I dealt with everything with food, why I put on this fat suit to keep people at arm's length. The biggest effort I have to do now is not the weight loss, it is fighting the things that trigger old memories and make me project my anger and frustration onto other people. Sometimes, pulling away a bit is the only answer. This has not been an easy journey, but it is journey that I have needed to take for some time now.
I want to thank all of you for joining me on my journey and supporting me throughout. Maybe with the next post, I finally break the 30 pound mark! Blessing to all........until next time.
WTG Melissa! Keep up the great insight and fight for yourself. You are an inspiration to me and give me hope that maybe I will be able to have some of your success. Thanks for allowing us to be a part of your journey.
ReplyDeleteYou're doing great. I hate it when you hit a mark and it's hard to get off that mark.
ReplyDeleteYOu know I'm a big fan of Denise Austin. If you've never checked out her books, you should. She's a big fan of moderation. ONce you get where you want, you may want to check her out. She lets you eat a slice or two of pizza.
I haven't been able to keep up as much as I've liked but I am SO EXCITED for you!! Don't worry about being a downer. Getting the mental "junk food" out of your system is an important part of the journey. Sometimes it's easier to write then to say it out loud. I can't wait to see you Saturday! Stay strong!
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