So, I let last week go and my issues with the scale. I was delighted this morning to see that I have lost 3 more pounds. That is 16 pounds in 29 days!!! It is such a great feeling!
I exercised this weekend a lot. On Saturday, I went to a park with a good amount of shade and walked. It was tough on my right knee. Some of you may remember that I fell in the end of December and sprained my right knee very badly. Thank the Lord it was not worse and I did not need surgery. I'll tell you, half way through the first walk my knee was screaming at me! I slowed down and chugged on. It felt good to be outside, getting some sun and moving around. Later that day, I walked Sawgrass Mills Mall. By the end of the night, my knee was throbbing, but I didn't care. It still felt so good to get moving and I was proud of what I had done. Sunday, my knee was still a little sore, but went to another park that has a wonderful walking/fitness trail. It is a half mile long with stops along the way to work other parts of the body. I did the whole track and then walked back the whole way! Again, it felt amazing! I was supposed to walk yesterday, but it got rained out. I am loving this new direction my life is taking on this journey!
Another positive, and I'm sure everyone will agree, I have more money not going out to eat all the time. I feel better, I have more money in the account to pay bills and am gaining confidence in myself everyday! If I can tackle this, I can tackle anything!
I also want to take a moment to thank everyone again for all of the support and kind words. I cannot tell you how much it means and how much it helps keep me on track!
Remember my goal? 50 pounds by my birthday in August.........34 more pounds to go! Until next time.....
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Frustration....Tomorrow is another day
I am not even going to lie........today is a frustrating day. I step on the scale and it says I lost 1 pound. Then I step on it again and it says I gained 2 pounds. Then I stepped on it again and it said I gained 3 pounds so............I don't fricken know what I did this week, although if I take my first weigh in, I lost 1 pound.
Here are my issues: The first issue is that I really do work a lot. I work Monday through Friday as an Executive Assistant in the morning. Then, I go home and eat lunch, take a little break and I'm right back at it with work. The afternoon/evening job is Medical Transcription. Last night I worked until 10 pm. Don't get me wrong, I am very thankful for the work. God provides and has continued to provide for me with work to pay my bills. I am really, really tired though. The thought of fitting 1 more thing into my schedule is daunting; however, I know I have to do it. My second issue is lonliness. I spend a lot of time alone at home. Eating is a social event, that when invited, I accept the offer. Let's go to dinner...We have to get lunch some time....Do you want to come over for dinner? It is so and so's birthday. Am I honestly supposed to stop accepting these invitations? That only isolates me more from the world and believe me, I am alone enough.
On Friday, a friend invited me to go to a "Night of Worship" at her church and it was wonderful. We had not seen each other in a while, so it was nice to catch up. The music and worship was just what I needed. Realizing that I have so much in common with her was refreshing and made me realize that I am really closed off from the world. This has to change........has to.
My victory for today is that I did not allow myself to fall back into my old habits of giving up since the scale did not say what I wanted it to say and go get some McDonalds. My goal for this week is to figure out a way to exercise with my schedule. I know I can do it.
Until next time...
Here are my issues: The first issue is that I really do work a lot. I work Monday through Friday as an Executive Assistant in the morning. Then, I go home and eat lunch, take a little break and I'm right back at it with work. The afternoon/evening job is Medical Transcription. Last night I worked until 10 pm. Don't get me wrong, I am very thankful for the work. God provides and has continued to provide for me with work to pay my bills. I am really, really tired though. The thought of fitting 1 more thing into my schedule is daunting; however, I know I have to do it. My second issue is lonliness. I spend a lot of time alone at home. Eating is a social event, that when invited, I accept the offer. Let's go to dinner...We have to get lunch some time....Do you want to come over for dinner? It is so and so's birthday. Am I honestly supposed to stop accepting these invitations? That only isolates me more from the world and believe me, I am alone enough.
On Friday, a friend invited me to go to a "Night of Worship" at her church and it was wonderful. We had not seen each other in a while, so it was nice to catch up. The music and worship was just what I needed. Realizing that I have so much in common with her was refreshing and made me realize that I am really closed off from the world. This has to change........has to.
My victory for today is that I did not allow myself to fall back into my old habits of giving up since the scale did not say what I wanted it to say and go get some McDonalds. My goal for this week is to figure out a way to exercise with my schedule. I know I can do it.
Until next time...
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
More progress
So, I weighed in this morning and lost 4 more pounds. I have to take all the pounds I can get now because I will probably not see numbers like this again. I have lost 12 pounds in 2 weeks. I have stopped drinking soda and I have not had fast food in 2 weeks! Who would've thunk it?
Today, however, I am actually a little down. It is really hitting me how out of control I let my weight get and how far I have to go just to get back to my normal overweight weight. It is a little disheartening and I really feel like I have let myself down........again. I guess that is the thing with addiction, it is an every day battle and it never really goes away. Lots of reflection today. Lots of thinking. Lots of remembering; a lot of people who I have allowed to affect my life in a negative way and then ultimately turning to food for comfort. Wow, I made that decision to let them get to me. I made the decision to eat.
So, today I turn a corner. I will not allow people to get to me or make me feel inferior. I will not allow myself to go back down this road again for the umpteenth time. I will make better decisions about what I eat. I will continue to be positive and not let myself get down. I have to. I only have 1 life to live and it is time I start living. Time I start enjoying everyday things I cannot because of my size or my physical inability. Time for me to make time to exercise and not always use work as an excuse. Granted, I do work a lot but if I can make time to watch General Hospital, I can make time to go for a walk everyday and progress from there. Today is the day. It is beautiful outside and I'm going for a walk. When I return home, I will work.
Thank you everyone for supporting me on my journey. It means more than you know. My next blog will be full of how much exercise I did. :-) Until next time.........
Today, however, I am actually a little down. It is really hitting me how out of control I let my weight get and how far I have to go just to get back to my normal overweight weight. It is a little disheartening and I really feel like I have let myself down........again. I guess that is the thing with addiction, it is an every day battle and it never really goes away. Lots of reflection today. Lots of thinking. Lots of remembering; a lot of people who I have allowed to affect my life in a negative way and then ultimately turning to food for comfort. Wow, I made that decision to let them get to me. I made the decision to eat.
So, today I turn a corner. I will not allow people to get to me or make me feel inferior. I will not allow myself to go back down this road again for the umpteenth time. I will make better decisions about what I eat. I will continue to be positive and not let myself get down. I have to. I only have 1 life to live and it is time I start living. Time I start enjoying everyday things I cannot because of my size or my physical inability. Time for me to make time to exercise and not always use work as an excuse. Granted, I do work a lot but if I can make time to watch General Hospital, I can make time to go for a walk everyday and progress from there. Today is the day. It is beautiful outside and I'm going for a walk. When I return home, I will work.
Thank you everyone for supporting me on my journey. It means more than you know. My next blog will be full of how much exercise I did. :-) Until next time.........
Monday, March 7, 2011
The Big Day - - The First Weigh in
So, I am pleased to let everyone know that I lost 8 pounds in my first week of my journey!!! I have also decided to call this a journey instead of a diet because the word diet has such a stigma attached. Its like the word die with a t at the end.
I feel better. My skin is clearer. I'm not requiring as much sleep, all in one week. It is amazing. I have tried to lose weight before, why is it so easy to forget the good things and fall back into old habits? This time, I will discover that answer in my journey so I do not fall back into my old habits.
Food has always been my comfort, my friend. I have been doing this since I was a child. I think it is time to change this pattern and start a new pattern, don't you?
On another note, a small victory I achieved this past week was being faced with social events. I had my bunco group meet on day two of my journey. We get together at 7pm, we eat and socialize for about an hour, then we play our game. Well, I went and told the host that I couldn't eat because I had started Nutrisystem the previous day. She was gracious and said, I have fruit here too, can you have that? So, I was able to eat a little bit and still be involved in the social activity which is important for me as I spend a good amount of time alone. I was proud of myself as I sat and ate grapes and strawberries and really was not tempted to eat more. My mind is finally on the right track. On Friday, I was invited to dinner with a friend from church. She and I get together about once a month for dinner to hang out and catch up. I suggested that we go to our usual restaurant, and she said, "Are you sure? I don't want to mess up your diet." I loved the support that she was offering. I said that I was sure and that I would order chicken and veggies. Again, I was not tempted in the least to order my usual chicken wings and French fries. I ordered a soup and salad and was very proud again of myself. On Saturday, I went to my sister's house, and again, did very well. I had very little appetizers, but I did have some which I should not have. I had one piece of meat, usually two or three and then I also had veggies and salad. My niece had made brownies and I was not good with that as I had three, which was like one and a half as the pieces were cut in half to what you are thinking. So, not as successful on Saturday, but I still made better choices.
All in all, the first week was a success. It was very eye opening as to what I can do and where I still need to work............work hard I'm sure. By the way, I also stopped caffeine this past week. I normally live on Diet Coke, not anymore; water and nothing else. The headache lasted for three days, but it was worth it.
First goal was 50 pounds by my birthday.......42 more to go. I'm on my way!!!
I feel better. My skin is clearer. I'm not requiring as much sleep, all in one week. It is amazing. I have tried to lose weight before, why is it so easy to forget the good things and fall back into old habits? This time, I will discover that answer in my journey so I do not fall back into my old habits.
Food has always been my comfort, my friend. I have been doing this since I was a child. I think it is time to change this pattern and start a new pattern, don't you?
On another note, a small victory I achieved this past week was being faced with social events. I had my bunco group meet on day two of my journey. We get together at 7pm, we eat and socialize for about an hour, then we play our game. Well, I went and told the host that I couldn't eat because I had started Nutrisystem the previous day. She was gracious and said, I have fruit here too, can you have that? So, I was able to eat a little bit and still be involved in the social activity which is important for me as I spend a good amount of time alone. I was proud of myself as I sat and ate grapes and strawberries and really was not tempted to eat more. My mind is finally on the right track. On Friday, I was invited to dinner with a friend from church. She and I get together about once a month for dinner to hang out and catch up. I suggested that we go to our usual restaurant, and she said, "Are you sure? I don't want to mess up your diet." I loved the support that she was offering. I said that I was sure and that I would order chicken and veggies. Again, I was not tempted in the least to order my usual chicken wings and French fries. I ordered a soup and salad and was very proud again of myself. On Saturday, I went to my sister's house, and again, did very well. I had very little appetizers, but I did have some which I should not have. I had one piece of meat, usually two or three and then I also had veggies and salad. My niece had made brownies and I was not good with that as I had three, which was like one and a half as the pieces were cut in half to what you are thinking. So, not as successful on Saturday, but I still made better choices.
All in all, the first week was a success. It was very eye opening as to what I can do and where I still need to work............work hard I'm sure. By the way, I also stopped caffeine this past week. I normally live on Diet Coke, not anymore; water and nothing else. The headache lasted for three days, but it was worth it.
First goal was 50 pounds by my birthday.......42 more to go. I'm on my way!!!
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