So, I weighed in this morning and lost 4 more pounds. I have to take all the pounds I can get now because I will probably not see numbers like this again. I have lost 12 pounds in 2 weeks. I have stopped drinking soda and I have not had fast food in 2 weeks! Who would've thunk it?
Today, however, I am actually a little down. It is really hitting me how out of control I let my weight get and how far I have to go just to get back to my normal overweight weight. It is a little disheartening and I really feel like I have let myself down........again. I guess that is the thing with addiction, it is an every day battle and it never really goes away. Lots of reflection today. Lots of thinking. Lots of remembering; a lot of people who I have allowed to affect my life in a negative way and then ultimately turning to food for comfort. Wow, I made that decision to let them get to me. I made the decision to eat.
So, today I turn a corner. I will not allow people to get to me or make me feel inferior. I will not allow myself to go back down this road again for the umpteenth time. I will make better decisions about what I eat. I will continue to be positive and not let myself get down. I have to. I only have 1 life to live and it is time I start living. Time I start enjoying everyday things I cannot because of my size or my physical inability. Time for me to make time to exercise and not always use work as an excuse. Granted, I do work a lot but if I can make time to watch General Hospital, I can make time to go for a walk everyday and progress from there. Today is the day. It is beautiful outside and I'm going for a walk. When I return home, I will work.
Thank you everyone for supporting me on my journey. It means more than you know. My next blog will be full of how much exercise I did. :-) Until next time.........
Great job! Soda and fast food have the calories. Restaurant food in general does...that's why I cook a lot now.
ReplyDeleteWow!! What an uplifting post. You are making progress on so many fronts. The insights you are gaining are nothing short of awesome. Keep up the good work! This introspection is very hard work I know, but it is what real growth and progress are based on. So banish that depression -- you are on the right road. And I am so proud of you. You should be rightly proud of yourself too. Don't let the nay-sayers get you down.
ReplyDeleteSo kick Kodi in the butt and keep walking. Maybe he will even lose a couple of pounds . Take care of yourself and remember how many people are in your corner and praying for your success.
Love you baby, Very proud Mom
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ReplyDeleteI am in complete awe of you! Words can not describe how proud I am to be your friend, though I was proud of that before your web debut! You have so much to offer and I'm so happy that you are taking steps to make yourself healthier, and help others through your insight in the process! Wish I could be there to walk with you and the furry child! Love you lots! Keep up the good work!
ReplyDeleteHey Melissa! Keep up the great work. Your inspiring me to do something.
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