I am not even going to lie........today is a frustrating day. I step on the scale and it says I lost 1 pound. Then I step on it again and it says I gained 2 pounds. Then I stepped on it again and it said I gained 3 pounds so............I don't fricken know what I did this week, although if I take my first weigh in, I lost 1 pound.
Here are my issues: The first issue is that I really do work a lot. I work Monday through Friday as an Executive Assistant in the morning. Then, I go home and eat lunch, take a little break and I'm right back at it with work. The afternoon/evening job is Medical Transcription. Last night I worked until 10 pm. Don't get me wrong, I am very thankful for the work. God provides and has continued to provide for me with work to pay my bills. I am really, really tired though. The thought of fitting 1 more thing into my schedule is daunting; however, I know I have to do it. My second issue is lonliness. I spend a lot of time alone at home. Eating is a social event, that when invited, I accept the offer. Let's go to dinner...We have to get lunch some time....Do you want to come over for dinner? It is so and so's birthday. Am I honestly supposed to stop accepting these invitations? That only isolates me more from the world and believe me, I am alone enough.
On Friday, a friend invited me to go to a "Night of Worship" at her church and it was wonderful. We had not seen each other in a while, so it was nice to catch up. The music and worship was just what I needed. Realizing that I have so much in common with her was refreshing and made me realize that I am really closed off from the world. This has to change........has to.
My victory for today is that I did not allow myself to fall back into my old habits of giving up since the scale did not say what I wanted it to say and go get some McDonalds. My goal for this week is to figure out a way to exercise with my schedule. I know I can do it.
Until next time...
You definitely can do it! You are a strong woman! Even while sitting at your desk, maybe do some leg lifts of just move your feet. It is something:) Small steps!
ReplyDeleteI KNOW you can do this! You are amazing!
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The little victories count bigtime! Hooray for no McDonalds!!!!!!! You can try baby steps with exercise too, parking farther away from the door at work and the store, and like Jenn said, leg lifts at the desk. You don't have to throw in a half hour workout at the gym to make a difference. I got a pedometer and tried to add steps each day. 1 day at a time! You got this! Love you!
ReplyDeleteHang in there... and don't be discouraged. You scored a major victory by not going to McDonalds!! It will turn around for you... just have faith.
ReplyDeleteI hope we'll get to see you this weekend . Missing you :)).